Name: Marcus Goh Shao Hao
Age: 17
School : Tampines ITE
Race: Chinese
Birthday: 12 March 1993
Status: Currently single
Likes : Anime ! Manga !
Hates : Violence. Seeing girls cry.
Today is so boring .. Help uncle make disc .. Then nothing liao .. Siansation ... I should have slept to my fullest ... I woke up at 9am for nothing .. Dunno why .. Maybe is i have a.d.d .. Nah .. Sian .. If Armand were here , man , i would be laughing and never be bored of his jokes .. He is one hilarious mother ****er .. Hehe .. U saw stars .. Not vulgar .. Softball coach wants me to carry 2kg dumbell with only my wrist .. 100 times each set .. Altogether got 3 sets .. The most i did was 100 times .. Then i felt a sharp pain from my shoulder .. Dunno what caused it .. Internal injury ? Dunno lar .. Parents all dunno .. Hope it heals fast .. Or else later go swimming that time like tortoise liao .. Left hand cannot raise up .. Muz use right hand to do things liao .. My left can still type things , carry things but cannot reach for high things .. Must use right hand .. I go carry weight juz nw then felt like inside got squishy sound .. Scary .. i tot break or something .. I put the dumbell down and it hurt more .. LOL! Maybe i should let it rest for 2 to 3 days then try again .. See if it heal overnight haha .. Impossible to heal within 1 day .. Sianzz .. Friend all busy .. Special someone go Kallang for singapore selection of softball members .. Sms also useless liao .. Cause going to burst .. Special someone also never see i think .. Let her concentrate ba .. Later my fault ... Cause keep toking crap to her then later she angry then no mood play.. So its best i stay at home and rot .. Mother want me to vacuum and mop my room liao .. Byes .. Hope she gets into team .. So that she can play better but on the other hand if she gets in , more boys will go after her .. Let fate decide it , yes ? It isn't for me to decide so let fate decide .. But i can guarantee , fate will NOT help me .. As true love always doesn't lasts .. Something bad will happen .. And always is i cause de .. I tink i tok too much platypus shit liao .. Haha crap coming out liao .. Later go sleep till 6pm .. Cause if i dun sleep , i will think of her .. Tonight got tuition at downstair de childcare .. Ahh .. I think i better shut up nw .. Later crap too much ..
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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Today was normal .. Siansation 100% .. Dad promised me to paint the house but he went to work ... LOL! My grandmother said my dad went to work but i didn't believe as i only believed my dad... Then i went home .. Saw no one at home .. I sang a few songs then call my mum .. She said my dad really went to work ... Then grandma call and nag at me .. Say wad dun believe her .. Go home with gurl or crap like that.. So embarrassing .. Few weeks later is my cousin and the special someone's birthday .. Then dunno wanna buy wad .. Buy soft toy ? Dunno lar ... Now only wanna blog , buy paper to do d & t .. Sian .. I have to draw and do mind map .... But drawing easy lar .. Cause this special someone gave me alot of ideas without knowing herself ... I made fun of her then she say hair will STAND .. then i thought .. If i made the wheelchair have legs that will " stand " as in push the wheelchair up buses, it would be a damn good idea and so i did alot of drawings and finally took the one which was best ...
Sian .. Now alone at home .. Call armand go out buy thing with me he dun wan .. But i dun care .. Once i save enough money to buy a webcam or something like that , i will make armand the second role of the clip i am going to make ...
Maybe only hor .. As i found the wig too small for me n i didn't buy it .. Dun laugh people .. guys head are always slightly larger then gurls .. Then cannot fit me .. Anyways i go download song le .. Bye bee!
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
Ignorance is something that bothers me nowadays .. Today i am going to tok about ignorance ... My maths teacher , Miss Kong , we call her king kong .. She is one mother ****er who ignores me whenever i say " Kong ! This question how to do ? " She will give me the WTF man , face and say , " Who ask you never listen when i was explaining ?!"
I hate it when she does that ...
She likes to ignore me again and again until my friend said " Hey sucker face , why dun u just call her chio bu ? Maybe she will give u a different reply ?"
I did what he told me to do and it worked .. I just had to say " Chio Bu ! How to do tis question ?" She became like a puppy and came to me and taught me I wanna thank this guy who taught me this Kong's feelings wasn't hurt but instead she became happy ..
Next , is friends ..
Don't you think that friends somethimes becomes a burden to u ?
I have this 2 groups of friends who do not stay together ... But i have to be with both groups whenever they need me , of course to make them laugh ... 1st group , Armand's group , we act as "fags"... Hope u guys knows what i am toking ok ? 2nd group , Wei Cong's group , we tok about school work and girls sometimes ... I have to balance both groups ... Be there for both ... So its best for me to keep both groups not meeting each other .. As almost everytime they see each other something either good or bad will happen ... So it depends ...
Its hard having too much friends ...
Mcdonald friends are extraordinary friends as they don't see ur other side of u which is the bad part and so they get along with u very very well ... So u dun have to worry about quarreling with them ...
Unless they are in the same school as u ...
Ok thats all for my blogging today ...
Have a nice day people !
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Friday, March 21, 2008
Wtf ?
Wtf people ! I am having such a hard time today .. Dunno why .. I go bus stop smell people smoking then almost vomit dunno why .. Then see last time Mcdonald boss at Kovan there .. Then saw Ben juz nice come in .. Then we bought food and go le .. Then on car Ben eat the burger when Alvin said don't eat on the car but Ben just ignored .. Then Alvin , Ben and I reach Padang but Kian boon and the others haven come .. Then we waited for like 1 and a half hours then they come .. During match the sun was frying me .. Then i took my handphone out and it felt like the system in the handphone like fry liao haha its like so damn hot .. Ben say if my phone fried , his phone also 100% friend liao cause we put at same place :p Then match juz contuinued ..
Blah .. Blah .. Blah ..
Match finally ended ! I called my dad , Ben wan my dad fetch him but can't cause i n my dad go find my mum then Ben scold me ..
zzz
Can't he be more understanding ?
Blame me if thats what he wants .. I dun care anyways .. Because it's his problem .. Told him my dad can't fetch him he scold me wad lousy idiot ...
Then nth liao le ..
When i wanted to go out .. Just felt freaking tired then wanted to sleep .. But just can't sleep !
Maybe i just didn't buy the ticket to Wonderland ba haha ...
Nothing more :p
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Tuesday, March 18, 2008
E is for emotional , ruins everybody's day M is for miserable people O is for on the dark side , because we got fresh cookies !
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Man and women are hard to be together ... As men tend to think that women want the guys... But the women do not want the guys but only wanna show off (maybe) I do not know as i am a guy ...
So sorry for not blogging so long as i have to study u see .... My results sux man .. Got back my social studies .. 13/20 xD so freakin happy lor teacher gib me tat " WTF man , this kid got wad a low mark?!" But at last , she was playing me , actually i passed!
Ok thats all for today Bye!
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Friday, March 14, 2008
Special someone
To this special someone , please get well ok ? U get sick and u can't teach me maths which i am not sure of and please drink lots of water and eat less oily food ok ? Ur life is double better for me i know and i have no rights to order u around .. But i just wanna tell u .. I care more then u think i do .. Please forget about online msn or friendster cause u are so sick that u can't answer my calls which is a little frustrating ..
So you just rest more , drink more water and eat less oily food ok ? You can ignore me if you want but er .. Its just a little advice from a friend from overseas ok ? Not school friend ok ?' Its er .. accidentally add wrong msn friend .. ^^ So u rest assure your friends will collect your homework and you won't miss anything from lesson .. I guess ..
N just to let you know my bro he decided not to make the videos cause we have too much stuff to do ..
Vacuum the floor Mop the floor Clean my keyboard .. Wipe the window Clean my dumbbells And lots lots more that you don't wanna know ..
Nothing more ! Signing off Rest well gurl! ;)
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Thursday, March 13, 2008
Life for me is getting worser and worser .. I just feel that part of my life is my fault .. I don't fit in well .. Might as well die .. Please give me a sign what i should do .. Should i end my life here ? Or shall i contuinue with pain , worries .. Please help me .. I don't know what to do .. I don't think what i am doing .. I kept doing foolish things .. I kept finding things to get myself into trouble .. Please can someone teach me how i should continue my life ? Please .. My life is filled with worries .. Please can someone , anyone help me .. Even if you are younger or even a passer-by , please tell me what i should do .. My family treats me like outcast you know ? They treat me differently .. My brothers they get everything .. But when it comes to me they want me to tell them my results Am i a problem child? Or am i thinking too much ? But i just don't get it .. Why must life be so hard for me ? I just feel like i am fucked up now .. My family thinks that i am doing it on purpose .. My younger brother like to exaggerate things .. I slap him on the back he says i punched him .. Fuck him lar ! Why must i have this type of brother ? Why must this type of person be born ? Am i like him too ? If i am , tell me.. I won't scold you or anything .. I will thank you instead .. For letting me know my mistakes As i shouldn't be here right now maybe .. No one cares about me anymore .. Some just wanna cheer me up and say they care but inside they don't even care a bit .. As always .. You yourself comes first not the others .. I am such a loser in everything .. My family don't even care about me anymore .. Last time when i was young , they cared for me .. But now they have changed ever since my younger brother was born .. That second they changed .. My parents changed .. I shouldn't have agreed that having a younger brother was good .. I shouldn't have .. He gets everything he wants and when i tell my parents that , they give me that type of " Stupid boy , why do i have a son like you ." Maybe they don't really want me .. My dad last night says that i am a failure .. Makes me wanna kill myself last night .. But my older brother cheer me up unknowingly .. I feel like dying now .. I wanna run away from home .. Far far away .. Throwing my worries at home .. Maybe i won't want a family like this .. I don't dare to talk to my dad personally .. Frankly speaking , i hate this family .. My dad don't understand me 1 bit .. The only thing he will ever ask me is , did you study ? Man , can't he talk about other stuff besides studies ? If my dad sees my blog , maybe he will really throw me out of the house .. And maybe say that i am never ever his son anymore .. I don't want that .. But at the same time life for me sucks .. Why can't i have life like other people ? Maybe last life i did something wrong that made people worry .. You may think that i am toking rubbish now .. But trust me , life for me is about stress and worries ..
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Life is meaningless to me .. Books are made to brainwash youngsters .. Some books are made to make youngsters have stress ... I don't know why we have to learn stuff like Bio and all that .. Why can't Singapore just let us learn what we want ? We can just study the subjects we like and going to be wad we want ... Like for me , i have no life and dreams due to my studies .. Why must you people study like mad to get your future ? Relax .. Singapore is a good country .. They won't let us die so easily.. Have you seen news papers that has a head line saying people starve to death in Singapore .. No right ?
Thats why government won't let us die so easily ..
I am not saying that students now must stop studying and start playing .. Just trying to say that why must we study so many subjuects when we don't even use it when we grow up ?! You see if you are going to be an accountant for example , wad use can u make of bio , chemistry ? You can't do anything with it ... I think the government can kindda think about it .. Cause u see , if u are going to be the next president for example , what use can u make from studying chemistry ? You aren't a scientist .. Why know so many bullshit when you are the president ? You have so much money that you can spend on and i have no idea what presidents do in their daily lives but i do know that maybe they you know , just have to sit back relax and just you know see our process of one day making them normal and not president .. So maybe i said maybe , Presidents don't wanna down grade so they are maybe making people's results a bit harder so next time no one will get the chance that they do ..
I don't know people , you may think i am bullshitting , but just think for a second , what can you do with science , if you are going to be a artist , model , hair stylist , accountant and lots more jobs that doesn't even consists of science ..
I think if the government change a bit , saying that this year's sec 3 will change to wad subjects they like and only study those AND need 4 subjects to pass .. So people won't get so depressed when they see their marks cause they know its the subject they enjoy so they won't you know , having students suiciding due to their results ..
I have those emotions before trust me .. I even thought of killing myself by cutting my wrist but i didn't i feel that if i kill myself , other kids like me will also suicide right ?
Not say that i am trying to make a sudden change but hope people from the government would accidentally see this .. Please think of your kids before you decline this offer ..
Offer : Change the rules now .. It isn't too late for anything ... Students studying the subjects they like and only have to study 4 subjects and pass 3 above 55 marks and people won't die so easily .. Why bother about people sweeping the streets ? We have people from other countries coming to Singapore to work yes ? So why bother .. Now youngster are getting more creative than the past .. Lets take frokm an example , hawaii boy name Ryan Higa , i may not know alot about him but i do know that he is so freakin creative that people sponsored and even invited him to have TV roles .. We Singapore can also do it its just that it is too strict you get me ? Have to study 8 subjects and pass bout 5 ? Thats hard you know ? Parents get angry even when we youngsters pass 5 subjects just nice to go sec 4 , parents will NOT be happy because there are 8 subjects and they would force their kids to not being happy and keep studying till they pass maybe 7 or even 8 ...
Think about it ... Think about the future .. Youngster 's minds nowadays only think creatively not like the old times , study is number 1 priority ... Yes, i may not have any rights to say about this but i am just trying to let you know that youngsters nowadays are stressing out and having more white hair then their parents ..
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
My dad is going to fucking kill me tonight ...
Thanks to my big brother KENNETH GOH !
Kenneth you freaking basket tell dad i playing wahjong with you ... You wan kanna fucking killed by me ar ? You better watch out you Cb kia ... Sabo me .. Fun ar basket ?
I promise you ... You won't like it when i keep you awake whole night ... I will fucking scare you till your freaking , disgusting and smelly mouth says sorry ...
Sianzzz ... ZZZ... This will be my last time using computer T.T I muz study hard .. Dad please forgive me !! Man , so scary every time i think of him holding the freaking cane ... He will shoot me like OMG! His aiming fucking accurate ... Hits at the same spot every time ... How i wish life was a game , if it was a game , i would restart it over until my life is perfect ...
Too bad my life isn't perfect but at least i am happy with it ... I have a younger and older brother which are asses but treats me quite well cant complain ...
Lol juz 5 mins i praise him and there he goes ... Sabo me again .. Tell my mum i using com now ... I fucked up liao le die le ... If i dun survive this , please ! I wanna pass half of my bank account to my dad and my mum , 3/4 to my bros and 1/4 to the one i love ... Quite stupid i know ... Giving someone money which isn't really related to me but ... I am born stupid ! xD Can't deny that i am dumb ...
Fuck bro going to shout me le bye guys ... My bro is an fucking asshole .. He sabo me all the time !!!
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
I just cant live without u .. Why didn't i see u from last time ... Now is too late le ... Sec 4 maybe i leaving school ... I am such a loser ... Feeling like laughing but can't Only wanna cry .. Shout out loud i feel like dying ! The world is cruel isn't it ... Why can't god let me be born in a richer family .. Then my parents and i can lead a happy life ... But money doesn't buy happiness ... I just feel so tired ... But whenever i sleep , i think of u ... I shut my eyes i see u there ... I jus feel like grabbing u n hug u forever and i am satisfied I can die without regrets even if it takes my life ... Love hurts tat deep ... Stressful now ... Life is hard ... My english fail ... My maths fail ... My chinese fail .. My physics pass and the rest still unknown ... Dunno wan tel my parents anot leh ... I feel like dying ...
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Monday, March 10, 2008
Yo people ... Nv blog a long time le busy ... Sianzzz ... Aiya why i blog for actually ... U guys see a bit then go away le .. What the hell ... Juz nw watch movie with fren ... The leap years .. I dun quite understand wad was going on ... The only thing i know is a woman is trying to tell story bout her past to her daughter ... Then tok tok tok then meet fren fren ... Then from fren to lovers ... Then lovers to break up ... Then patch back ... LOL! What's going on with this movie ? My mum say ah long pte ltd ending is stupid then center funny only ... Ah ... Why are movies these days such low ? Wan money only ... Money come le anyhow take then go home sleep ... Sianzzz ... Bye !
