Name: Marcus Goh Shao Hao
Age: 17
School : Tampines ITE
Race: Chinese
Birthday: 12 March 1993
Status: Currently single
Likes : Anime ! Manga !
Hates : Violence. Seeing girls cry.
Life for me is getting worser and worser .. I just feel that part of my life is my fault .. I don't fit in well .. Might as well die .. Please give me a sign what i should do .. Should i end my life here ? Or shall i contuinue with pain , worries .. Please help me .. I don't know what to do .. I don't think what i am doing .. I kept doing foolish things .. I kept finding things to get myself into trouble .. Please can someone teach me how i should continue my life ? Please .. My life is filled with worries .. Please can someone , anyone help me .. Even if you are younger or even a passer-by , please tell me what i should do .. My family treats me like outcast you know ? They treat me differently .. My brothers they get everything .. But when it comes to me they want me to tell them my results Am i a problem child? Or am i thinking too much ? But i just don't get it .. Why must life be so hard for me ? I just feel like i am fucked up now .. My family thinks that i am doing it on purpose .. My younger brother like to exaggerate things .. I slap him on the back he says i punched him .. Fuck him lar ! Why must i have this type of brother ? Why must this type of person be born ? Am i like him too ? If i am , tell me.. I won't scold you or anything .. I will thank you instead .. For letting me know my mistakes As i shouldn't be here right now maybe .. No one cares about me anymore .. Some just wanna cheer me up and say they care but inside they don't even care a bit .. As always .. You yourself comes first not the others .. I am such a loser in everything .. My family don't even care about me anymore .. Last time when i was young , they cared for me .. But now they have changed ever since my younger brother was born .. That second they changed .. My parents changed .. I shouldn't have agreed that having a younger brother was good .. I shouldn't have .. He gets everything he wants and when i tell my parents that , they give me that type of " Stupid boy , why do i have a son like you ." Maybe they don't really want me .. My dad last night says that i am a failure .. Makes me wanna kill myself last night .. But my older brother cheer me up unknowingly .. I feel like dying now .. I wanna run away from home .. Far far away .. Throwing my worries at home .. Maybe i won't want a family like this .. I don't dare to talk to my dad personally .. Frankly speaking , i hate this family .. My dad don't understand me 1 bit .. The only thing he will ever ask me is , did you study ? Man , can't he talk about other stuff besides studies ? If my dad sees my blog , maybe he will really throw me out of the house .. And maybe say that i am never ever his son anymore .. I don't want that .. But at the same time life for me sucks .. Why can't i have life like other people ? Maybe last life i did something wrong that made people worry .. You may think that i am toking rubbish now .. But trust me , life for me is about stress and worries ..
