Name: Marcus Goh Shao Hao
Age: 17
School : Tampines ITE
Race: Chinese
Birthday: 12 March 1993
Status: Currently single
Likes : Anime ! Manga !
Hates : Violence. Seeing girls cry.
Today is fine ... Thank you guys. For being there when i needed you. Those who i need to mention are, Armand, Chermaine, John, Yuan Zhi and my 5 buddies =) But recently, my mind has been acting strange . What i smell, smells like you. Whoever i see, looks like you. I hear your voice everywhere. I'm turning crazy ... The perfume is getting into me .. Your presence made me comfortable. With you around, i feel like i can express myself without restraining myself. Now i understand , this ain't love. This is brother and sister love. I shouldn't have ask you onto a relationship when u wrote DON'T WISH TO HAVE STEAD NOW. I am so blind ... Sorry manz. Hope you don't mind me being dumb ... I miss you. As a sister to you ... You're a brother to me, and I'm a sister to you ... Well, bye ...
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Idiot! The previous post means i'm jealous, i'm very jealous! Jealous of what? You! I'm confused. To her, you're someone more cherished. To her, i'm nothing. You're worth more than me. To her, i'm just a piece of shit. You, you're someone she calls a trustable friend. I can't think properly. No, it isn't your fault. Stop thinking that it is your fault. It is mine! I shouldn;t have loved you. You warned me, i didn't take your advice. I thought i had a chance but no, i didn't Please, give me 5 mins, i need to talk to you. I'm really sorry ... My head hurts now ... I can't think properly. I don't even know if i'm typing sense. People, i'm typing this post to myself. Cause nobody wants to lecture me. I'll scold myself. But seriously, Mark, i'm jealous of you. I wish you the best of luck. But if you hurt her. You'll regret, I swear i'll turn insane on you ...
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Lyrics for Rock is Dead
All simple monkeys with alien babies Amphetamines for boys Crucifixes for ladies Sampled and soulless Worldwide and real webbed You sell all the living For more safer dead
Anything to belong
[Chorus:] Rock is deader than dead Shock is all in your head Your sex and your dope is all that were fed So fuck all your protests and put them to bed
God is in the T.V.
1,000 mothers are praying for it We're so full of hope And so full of shit Build a new god to medicate and to ape Sell us ersatz dressed up and real fake
Anything to belong
Rock is deader than dead
[Chorus repeat]
God is in the T.V.
Now I'm bored. Hope you guys can understand. By the way. Here's a clue to understand. Listen to the song and read it. It's fun and easy to understand. Well, see if u can spot. Now i'm both a little annoyed and happy at the same time. Not that i think i last a chance or what but it's because i know i WON"T last a chance so my heart is already dead =) So this is who i am. But i'll still try changing for the better. Not the old vulgar me. Nights people!
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Thursday, October 29, 2009
Lyrics for Heart-Shaped Glasses
She reminds me of the one in school When I was cuttin' She was dressed in white And I couldn't take my eyes off her But that's not what I took off that night She'll never cover up what we did with her dress, no She said kiss me It'll heal But it won't forget Kiss me It'll heal But it won't forget And I don't mind you keepin' me On pins and needles If I could stick to you And you stick me too Don't break Don't break my heart And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses Little girl, little girl You should close your eyes That blue is getting me high Don't break Don't break my heart And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses Little girl, little girl You should close your eyes That blue is getting me high And making me low That blue is getting me high And making me low She reminds me of a one I knew That cut up the negatives of my life I couldn't take my hands off her She wouldn't let me be anywhere but inside And I don't mind you keepin' me On pins and needles If I could stick to you And you stick me too Just don't break Don't break my heart And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses Little girl, little girl You should close your eyes That blue is getting me high Don't break Don't break my heart And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses Little girl, little girl You should close your eyes That blue is getting me high And making me low She'll never cover up what we did with her dress, no She said kiss me It'll heal But it won't forget Kiss me It'll heal But it won't forget I don't mind you keepin' me On pins and needles If I could stick to you And you stick me too Don't break Don't break my heart And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses Little girl, little girl You should close your eyes That blue is getting me high Don't break Don't break my heart And I won't break your heart-shaped glasses Little girl, little girl You should close your eyes That blue is getting me high And making me low
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Last Verse.
This will be my last post of my thoughts. Next time i won't post anything. I'll find lyrics of songs to show my emotions ... Only some will understand .. Some won't ... Jeffrey and Andre will understand ... The others i don't know ... AEddi maybe will understand .. I'm bored ... Relax manz, i won't cut my wrist. I don't wish to die young. I still want to have a beautiful and wonderful wife and 2 wonderful kids. Hopefully 2 boys. Well, thats all for today ...
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Rejected.
I just got rejected .. I'm so jealous I am so so so jealous. First, i'm sorry. I think the best cure, is to find someone to rant on. Find someone i can tell all my thoughts and unhappiness to . Now i'm being avoided ... Or i'm avoiding .. I'm a loser. An idiot. I'm not gonna scold vulgarities again. Anyone hear me scold vulgarities, no need wait, just hit me with whatever you got. I'll treat it as some work out. Please, i wanna get rid of this habit . It's already 12am. Tears stop dripping .. Hands stopped shivering .. I decided to stop loving you. I should stop ... I should know what am i to you. To you i'm only a piece of trash. I'm a flirter and a hooligan . Well, i'll prove to you i'm not. I will not love you. I'll only treat you as a friend. Nothing but a friend. I won't do anything to you. This will be my last time scolding vulgarities today. FUCK THE WIMPS! I'M DAMN FUCKED UP RIGHT NOW! FUCK IT MANZ! YEA, I'M A LOSER MAN. AND A BIG ONE. SO FUCK !!!!! Okay, thats enough. i just wanted to scold for the sake of scolding for the last time. Now i got lots of people who wanna beat me. So i better know what should i do. I won't scold anymore. Goodbye.
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Knew the whole situation. Dumb me. Dumb me. Dumb me. Dumb me. Dumb me. Dumb me. I was totally looking for trouble myself. I'm sorry for disturbing. You have your rights. I shouldn't talk so much. Sorry .. I guess i got the wrong idea.. Stupid me .. I fail as a human being. I can't even think right .. Me n my "great" brain .. Sorry for the stuff i've caused .. I'm a failure .. Bla Bla Bla ...
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Whats the meaning of a "yes..." ... Erm.. I'm both relaxed and worried. I'm relaxed cause Andre cheered me up when i needed to change my mind to someone. I'm worried cause my borhter replied me a yes ... I tried calling house phone and handphone, it says, connection error... I'm drifting off again... I keep thinking my brother is with his friends, and i'm the only one being worried... I'm scared now ... I scared my brother will forget me .. My mind is giving me false thoughts again .. I feel like crying now .. I'm lost... What do i do? I'm very troubled ... Maybe eating will cure me? I'll go eat now .. Try to shift my thoughts to only chewing ... I want to chat now ... I miss the voice .. The sound. The soft tone ... You guys know what i mean right? Anyways, i think i'll post till here. The waiting is killing me ... I'm worried ... Bye~ Error 2. Error number 2 : Jealousy
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Day one without replies. Rainy. I woke and and smsed her today. She replied. Then afternoon, i smsed once more, nothing came back ... I smsed her friend. No replies. I asked for help from my cousin. She told me to gain control of myself. Not lose control. I must learn to be stronger. Not everytime the moment i'm in a relationship i need the person around me 24/7. It'll be very tiring for both parties. So i learnt it the hard way. Being ignored. And maybe the other party is enjoying now ... Well, i can't say much thats it's hardly even her fault. I caused this. I should blame myself then the others. Well, the only thing now is to not piss her off. Be quiet and wait till she chills. I'm sorry for spamming, i know its irritating but i realise my wrong beings. I shouldn't have said anything to you. Now you're drifting away from me... Leaving me on the verge ... I don't know what to do without you. I'm lonely today. I've never felt like that before but today has seriously became an no meaning day. I even had thoughts about you smsing me every second my phone vibrates. Thank you everyone for being beside me when i needed them. The words you guys said will be remembered by heart. I know i shouldn't piss her off. But i think i triggered her ... She might even hate me for life. Well, thats that. Who ask me, small things nia Jealous, this jealous that jealous. I think i'm the most pettiest person on the word. I should have extended my gauge. I'm sorry for the things i have done and said. Even though i don't really know what did i do wrong but i think it's because of me and my nonsense ... Where are you.. I've been looking for you .. Msn pop-ups, seeing if ur face would reveal itself ... I want to hear you and see you .. I don't mind if you're there to scold me or hit me. I just wish you could appear before me. Sadly, it ain't gonna happened, i deserve this punishment. I'm sorry for even being posting this post. I'm sorry for being petty. I'm sorry for being noisy I'm sorry for being irritating I'm sorry for spamming I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for being me. I'm sorry. I hope you'll forgive my wrong beings. Sorry is the only thing i can say to you ...
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I'm bored .. Nobody avaliable now. Brother now dunno go where, phone call nor sms were replied. MIA liao lor .. (Missing In Action) Can't contact ... Jealous .. Thoughts drifting around, emotions uncontrollable. Thoughts drifting to bad signs ... Hope nothing does happen to you. Asked Guo Shen what to do . He told me maybe my brother now angry with me, so i shouldn't sms for maybe a week or two cause he say everyone needs to cool down and needs time being given. So, i guess thats that, until my brother replies, or i'll stay ... No sms-ing? I'll try restraining myself. Cause Guo Shen say if i keep spamming smses, later people will get angry den matters will worsen. So its best for me to keep it to myself temporary lor .. Hope its not something happening behind my back .. I hope my brother will tell me the truth. Yes, you need to tell me if its a yes or no. I can wait, as long as i must. I won't piss u off. I won't disturb you. Until you reply me, or i won't do anything ... I hope i didn't do error number one ... Error number 1 : Irritation. Goodbye ...
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Argh!!!!!!!!! Am i being ignored? SOMEBODY! Tell me manzxz! Andre, buy me from Friends for Sale. Mark, stop buying me. "Brother"! , buy me. Andre, after my brother buy me liao, u dun buy kays? Thanks manzxzzz ... Sian la, totally nothing to do now lor .. Andre on the phone .. Nothing to do ... We talk li9ke nothing to talk lor .. I keep shouting like some dumbass and he's giving me the "diao ... ~" kind of voice .. I tell him go hougang mall slack but he don't want .. Sian lor ... Go slack then fun mah .. Cause now u got thing to do meh ... Nothing to do leh ... Jeffrey online msn liao ... Brother, you when gonna reply my message, u don't reply i will be worried you know .. Sian la ... I wanna find you but i scared i sms too much u think i irritating .. So i decided to wait ... Sms ur frens they also ignore so no point... Waiting is the only solution now lor ... Siansation ... Boredom ... Sian ... Talking to Andre now ... He's telling me about his bro wanting to get cash for Sudden Attack .. Sian lor, he also very bored ... Brother,i wan go find you leh ... You're the only one who is always avaliable for me ... Jealousy killed me. Goodbye
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I'm totally tired today .. Wanted to get ready for tonight de .. But since you not feeling well then we don't meet lor .. Until you feel better liao den we meet up also not very late right? But if really very very pain, must tell leh ... Later nobody know, u pain until cry again ... Understand anot brother. You now have "stomach flu" leh ... So pain must say kay anot? You just call me only, i run down go pick you up if you can't walk la brother. Sian leh ... Now nothing to do ... Jeffrey went to work, so nobody Dota ... Colin want to dota but not enough people ... Andre haven't ask him yet but his brother comfirm play first de ... Elson go out with Jocelyn so no point asking him. Now very sian ... Listening to Marilyn Manson songs ... Blasting ... Waiting ... Now i very worried leh brother. Sms you also never reply ... Come on la ... Last time anything i sms u , u longest 5 mins reply liao now 20 mins le still haven't reply ... Sad lei ... Wth?Oo My internet suddenly automatic disconnect den nw connecting back .. Retarded manzxz ... Sian ... My msn auto sign out liao ... Done! Connected liao ... Msn in, Hamachi in, Download manager in. Resuming download. Resume support connecting . . . Connected Done liao ... Everything up liao .. Stupid net, suddenly Disconnect me .. Now a bit bored, dunno what to type lor ... Waiting for you .. Still waiting ... Still waiting ... Waiting ... Why am i waiting? Cause i'm worried .. Waiting ... Is this post gonna end? Waiting ... Waiting ... Don't think so ... Waiting ... Waiting ... Better don't flood my own post ... I go wait in msn ... Bye Suckers!
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I'll be there when you need me. Tell me you need help, i'll help. You need me, i'll come to you. I failed to make you anybody else. But i didn't fail to tell you, you change is not for anyone else. But yourself. You were better today. You didn't attitude me at all. Thats good news =D. Well, i walked you home and i ran home sia ... Sweaty lei ... And yes, i reached home around 5.30pm and went to pick up my younger bro. Aiya, brother, next time i carry you hor, don't make weird noises leh. I piggy back you don't give me weird noises lei ... Cause people think we gay sia. Ya la ya la, i sissy la hahaha. So what i sissy? You too MAN liao la! You gotta chill, be like me ^^ Okay, this will be my post for today. Goodbye Suckers!
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
The Beautiful People
Lyrics for "The Beautiful People"
I dont want you and I dont need you Dont bother to resist, Ill beat you Its not your fault that youre always wrong The weak ones are there to justify the strong The beautiful people, the beautiful people Its all relative to the size of your steeple You cant see the forest for the trees You cant smell Your own shit on your knees Hey you, what do you see? Something beautiful, something free? Hey you, are you trying to be mean? If you live with apes, man, its hard to be clean Theres no time to discriminate, Hate every motherfucker Thats in your way The worms will live in every host Its hard to pick which one they eat most The horrible people, the horrible people Its as anatomic as the size of your steeple Capitalism has made it this way, Old-fashioned fascism Will take it away (chorus)
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Monday, October 26, 2009
Confused ...
Do you even want me to be there? It's weird ... You want me when you feel like it. You tell me to go off when you think I'm irritating ... I'm sorry for being irritating on my part. But please hint me but not tell me directly to go home? Don't push me leh ... I hate it when people push me like toy ... Next time i take bus with you la ... Don't walk, if walk we will quarrel somehow de ... But seriously, i don't mind letting you do whatever you know. You wanna sleep i don't mind letting you sleep on my legs de ... If you don't mind, i won't mind ... I can piggy back you anytime you want ... Just without people can le ... Cause both me and you also don't want anyone to see us like that right? Anyways, enough of that. Today was confusing ... I wanted you to come accompany me talk cause i bored. You came. You can chat with me so many stuff, still can push me until i fly. I scared i push you back u fly ar ... Say i weak ... Haha ... Well, about me today, i feel tired lor .. Cause "SOMEONE" force me eat something i don't like ... Cause like, all my brothers know i hate eating egg yolks right? So you bought me eggs and i ate one .. I was so into talking to you until i just threw the rest of the egg into my mouth! The egg was with the yolk! I almost vomitted, then you chased me to ask me eat the remaining egg. WITH the yolk! You drop on the floor still want me eat?! Oh my god la you ! Hahahahaha!!!!! Well, after lots and lots of jokes, we walked to buangkok MRT there ... Walk until half way you saw the small pond at the condo and you told me to jump in and swim ?! You're weird. Thats why i scold you kanasai... Then you don't know can't remember what you said then i told you to shut up on a joking tone. You took it seriously and pushed me 3 times and told me to head home. I was angry at that moment and i went immediately home. I'm sorry for being so reckless manz. Hey, remember, don't be like me, think of you then almost kana car bang, You think of me will also almost kana car bang de. Take care manzxzxzxzxz!!! Cheers! Haha! I love dogs ... I have no interest in cats but i don't mean i hate them. I love dogs cause they are man's best friend. Well, no matter what they do, they won't betray you or anything else. They stay truthful to you. And there will be only one master to them, its you. While cats are better slightly. Normally dogs stay home guarding the house whereas cats move freely around the area as long they know the way home. Dogs are dumb, they run after vehicles at night. They see cars or motorbikes, they follow. Cats are like " Fuck off, don't disturb my slumber or i'll claw you!" Dogs are like " Oooooo... Interesting, new stuff, later then i go home, now follow this Unknown Moving Object" But seriously, dogs don't know the way home unless ... I don't know. My dog always goes Missing In Action while i see my neighbour's cat moving freely whenever and wherever it wants to go. Well thats all, "ALL ABOARD!!!!" Goodbye Suckers!
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Lyrics for Mobscene
Lyrics for Mobscene.
"Ladies, and gentlemen" We are the things of shapes to come Your freedom's not free and dumb This depression is great The Deformation Age, they know my name Waltzing to scum, and base and Married to the pain
BANG, we want it BANG, we want it BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG
You came to see the mobscene I know it isn't your scene It's better than a sex scene and it's So fucking obscene, obscene, yeah
You want commitment? Put on your best suit, get your arms around me Now we're going down, down, down You want commitment? Put on your best suit, get your arms around me Now we're going down, down, down
[GIRLS] Be obscene, be, be, obscene Be obscene, baby, and not heard
The day that love opened our eyes, We watched the world end We have "high" places but we have no friends The world told us sin's not good but we know it's great War-time full-frontal drugs, sex-tank armor plate
BANG, we want it BANG, we want it BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG
You came to see the mobscene I know it isn't your scene It's better than a sex scene and it's So fucking obscene, obscene, yeah
You want commitment? Put on your best suit, get your arms around me Now we're going down, down, down You want commitment? Put on your best suit, get your arms around me Now we're going down, down, down
[GIRLS] Be obscene, be, be, obscene Be obscene, baby, and not heard Be obscene, be, be, obscene Be obscene, baby, and not heard
You came to see the mobscene I know it isn't your scene It's better than a sex scene and it's So fucking obscene, obscene, yeah
You want commitment? Put on your best suit, get your arms around me Now we're going down, down, down You want commitment? Put on your best suit, get your arms around me Now we're going down, down, down
"Ladies and gentlemen, be obscene! Be obscene! Be, be obscene!" [GIRLS] Be obscene, be, be, obscene Be obscene, baby, and not heard Be obscene, be, be, obscene Be obscene, baby, and not heard
BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG, BANG
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Dun fuck man, you better stay where you should be. You mai guai lan and cross the line man ... I let you be my friend very good liao hor. Now you "party" me then call me go abyss with u kio people U fuckin betray my trust and kill me? Knn, ur level low like shit u wan fuck me? U better don't let me see u at abyss i tel u, comfirm fuck u until u kpkb la U cb kia. Fuck you man! U fucking paper fighter . U mai think u 25spr nia and all str si bei zai. I all str and 25 end morezai den u asshole. U mai fuck, u dare u come nia, msn me, nudge me only dick head! Bye Suckers!
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Sunday, October 25, 2009
I'm turning insane day by day ... Ever since i knew you, you've been in my mind ... I can't lose you right now. Just not now ... If i lose you now, i'll seriously turn insane .. You guys won't like me when i turn insane ... Well, enough about that , not like i'm insane nw .. Well, today's kindda bored so nothing special actually ... Long time also nv type blog le cuz of work ... Keep working .. Everyday work 8 hours leh .. Then the pay macham peanut liddat .. Hard to survive like that. I need more money so maybe around next month or so i'll change my job to IKEA if possible cuz my bro is already working there so maybe i go there work also lor ... Recently keep playing games .. Then never lose one time hahaha ... Almost lose but nv lose .. Went into PvP zone ... Saw this level 50 mage, looks like AFK-ing, i stand there , i go hit him once with my level 42 fighter. Crictical damage 1056, he left a bit life nia. I thought he gonna kill me but he still stood there. So i go there use skill again, he died. Thats how i got my kill point hahaha. Besides that, nothing else is funny? My life is boring nowadays ... I need someone to hold .. I wanna hold this someone and never let go ... But sadly, i don't hold anything attached to you. So you're like a kite , flying freely, without any strings attached. But you're a very beautiful kite, everytime i see you, u seem so near yet looks so far ... I want to hold on to you but besides me there are alot of kite lovers wanting you ... i can't lose .. i hate losing ... Wish me with the best of luck ... Good bye Suckers.
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Monday, October 19, 2009
So long nv post liao ... i completely forgot about this blog .. well, to everybody now, i'm a very "sui bian" kind of guy. say nicely is random, say bad is flirt. well, i am not a flirt. i have my types okay? whatever manz,u think i anyhow just pick any girl and stead with her? You are wrong. If i did that, i won't be single right now typing this blog and let u see my post. If i am a flirt, i would be outside, dating 5 girls at a time. Well, thats why i'm not a flirt kay? Bye suckers!
