Name: Marcus Goh Shao Hao
Age: 17
School : Tampines ITE
Race: Chinese
Birthday: 12 March 1993
Status: Currently single
Likes : Anime ! Manga !
Hates : Violence. Seeing girls cry.
Recently damn no mood to joke. Last time my bro joke i'll laugh. Now wun bother to even entertain him. Damn no life now. Just want to keep everything to myself. Just suffer on my own. Until my other appears. Don't feel like playing, eating or sleeping. argh ! Retarded ! Bye~
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Saturday, November 28, 2009
Fuck ... Addicted to shuffle ! ... The anime , i'm in love with Asa-san. I can't find the game ... Who have? I want find ... But it isn't a normal game ... It's a hentai game ... My friends won't lend me ... I want go find leh ... Anyone have ? Anyone can lend me or sell me? I want it so much ... When i found out it had to finish in 30 weeks. I feel like crying so much. Fuck ... I love it so much ... And for your information fucktards! Watching anime isn't a crime! Watching Anime is a lifestyle, not a girly thing. It's unisex fuckin retarded ! Look at this _l_ Just fuck off assholes.
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Friday, November 27, 2009
Today was quite fun . Went to Hougang Mall meet Guo Shen. Go eat pepper lunch. Quite nice. The beef was cooked just nice. Never see Guo Shen for almost a year le, Miss him damn lots. But i realised something real quick. Guo Shen is shorter then me and Boon Yuen. Last time he was the tallest among the 3 of us. Now, he's the shortest =.= ... Then talk about alot M18 stuff ... Bla bla bla ... Then meet Shi Wei n Jie lin. Den go meet Lian Shun and Yi Teng. Den Guo Shen left home. So the rest of us go sing Kbox. Dunno what the shop name. Den the place damn small. I was thinking it could have been bigger alot. Then Yi Jia came and made the place lively. I didn't sing cuz i suck @ english and chinese songs. The only song i can sing is Luo Zhi Xiang's songs. But they picked SHE and lots more i don't know de. So yea, practically slept through the whole time. Yi Jia keep shouting into the mic den make alot sharp noises. Woke me up around 4 to 5 times. Den total Boon Yuen, Lian Shun and me slept ... Almost the whole journey. i only drank half of Carlsberg. Okay, i hate it, the taste was too heavy. Heineken the best =) Den talk talk. Dey all went home Left Yijia, Boonyuen and me go hougang mall. Boon Yuen go take psp.. Then we go eat Chicken rice ... Den went home ... Damn bored ... Sian ... I envy the couples ... Saw how Lian Shun n Yi Teng, Shi Wei and Jie Lin all so 甜蜜. Then i'm like extra lor. Should be couple outing me n boon yuen go be extra. How i wish i could find myself a girlfriend .. But maybe i'm too picky? Cuz i have my own expectations. Like for example. I want my girlfriend to be able to cook, go out with my friends. She can take my nonsense and laugh about it. She can give me almost half of her time. She doesn't over control me. Thats all. Seriously, to me i think it's simple but i just can't find it. And i don't like shy girls, as in, over shy. Be bold, tell me what u want. Don't hint me , cuz i'm dumb and i won't get it. Life just don't go according to one's plan. Bye bye den ~
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Seriously, who do you think you are? You come back when you feel like it. You go when you don't want me. Seriously, make up your mind. What's the point of telling me that? Telling me we can be like last time. You ditched me like nobody's business and now you say you loved me more?! What rubbish?! How you think i can trust you like that? You want me den i must give you? I am not the Marcus i've used to be. I've changed. I'm not the guy last time, u pamper me a bit i will let you do whatever u want. What i want you got give me? U say de, i all do for you le, what you want from me? You want me to enroll into the same school as you, i did. Den? You broke me into pieces. Now you tell me you wanna be together with me again. What load of bullshit! You think i like last time? You kiss me den i will like u? Nope, tell you what, i'm not like last time. Forcing yourself to me isn't the way either. You go ask yourself what you've done. I've given you morning and night kisses. I've bought you whatever you want. I even punched that guy a year ago cuz of you. You wanted help, i gave u help. U felt down, i lend you my shoulder. I became your toy afterwards. You want to play den u call me. You don't want u just kick me aside. For what? Cuz to show your sister that you are much better? Tell you what, i won't fall into ur trap. So just give up. Yes, we can be friends like last time but no more crap. I know your sis, so what you do i can tell her. So don't , please, stop forcing yourself to do what u don't. Just let it rest. We haven't contact for a year or more already. Please, control. You despo den come find me. Expect me to be the soft sided Marcus again? Unless you show me your not that always solo girl. Change, if u want, but i might not give u 100% of my love. Cause ever since u broke me apart, i've been changing alot of targets. Now i'm just having a big headache. So just leave me alone. Don't come and find me. When i think the time is right, i'll go find you. So just be patient kays? You want me to be like last time? Sure, but first, you change , think of others before doing crap. Okay? Be a good girl like last time. Maybe i'll consider you again. Maybe i'll be your baby you pampered last time. Just be patient ... Be good kays? Bye bye ~
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Currently onto Kiss X Sis. It's a nice anime. But it's a little ecchi. This is the synopsis Keita is living many junior high school boys' dream. He has two older step twin sisters who compete for his romantic love in so many ecchi ways: good morning kisses and panty flashing. Their parents openly support the sisters' feelings and advances because they are step-siblings and are not related by blood, in fact they even have a bet going as to which sister Keita will accept. Now, if only the sisters were not so popular, because they have asked their little brother to attend their high school where there are certain to be problems. Hope you guys would like it too =) But there's a problem ... There are only 3 episodes currently. The forth episode will be out next year 2010. Around the month of June. Well, i gotta go watch it again. It's so nice XD Byebye now~
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Recently , seriously don't know how to entertain myself. I went out with my friends today and i still think i didn't have enough fun. I keep thinking, what if they arrived earlier. What if this, what if that. Seriously, it's a drag but, what if ? What if i didn't confess? What if i didn't scold him? What if i didn't flirt so much? What if i didn't go swimming? What if i didn't ask them to arrive so late? What if i planned it properly? What if i gave him a piece of my mind? What if what if what if ? So many "What IFs" there are .. Those are all my regrets ... The stuff i knew i shouldn't have did and yet, i did. I was dying as it was boring @ home. Thats why i rushed out today .. I went to Mcdonalds that early cause i was bored ... My friends are not there for me 24/7. They have their own time also... I'm too into her. I just can't resist. So i need my friends to keep my mind off. Even when i work, the moment i see you, my mind spins. Causing headaches and fatigue .. I feel so tired sometimes .. Why do we exist since we're worst then beasts? We say lion's are so scary, they eat humans but what about us? We eat chicken etc etc. To them, we're beasts. We're beasts who kill and eat. After all, being a human is already a sin. We've done so much that harmed our own kind. We beat up and bully our own kind. Therefore, there are the existance of the weaklings. Weak people are there for a purpose. To allow the strong to look stronger. What for? For respect ? Nah, people won't respect you. They'll just be afraid of you. I don't know what i'm talking about now. My head's starting to split. Bye.
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Tired of this blogskin le ... Feel like changing but lazy change myself ... Can anyone help me change? Zzz ... Nobody wants to help me ... Forget it =) I'm alone right now... Sitting on the white chair ... Staring @ the computer screen. Lights switched on so brightly .. Drinking Sprite ... So bored ... Can someone just intro me some game? I'm dying to play any game. But seriously, nt those lame level up games. Too sian ... Tired .. Sensation is being lost, feeling Siansation instead. Bored ... Feel like finding some new anime .. Just want to keep myself busy .. Guo Shen, this friday treat me n Yuen hor... I will skip dinner for thursday to eat ur treat. Thanks ... Dunno what to type nw ... Legs both a bit pain ... Shi Wei keep pulling ... Den i scissors grapple him, he flip me over LOL. Den he say i damn light. Juz like paper =.= Well, thats all. I think tomorrow i whole day stay @ home. Nobody pei me go out ... Lonely .. Irritated ... Bothered .... Sick ..... Aches ...... Bye bye ~
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Today went hougang mall to meet up with Lian Shun and Boon Yuen. I was talking to Boon Yuen , then suddenly a girl shout out " 死Marcus" Then i was like what the f .. Then saw Jessica, the only thing i can say to her was, " Hey " Thats all ... Seriously, nothing much to tell her. Then i go makan ... Eat McChicken Meal upsize ... Then she n her friend sit behind me, couldn't care at all so i ate my full. Then saw Mark ... @ that moment, i dunno why i felt a little threatened ... Just the presence of him made me feel unusual. Then went to meet Lian Shun @ Mrt station. Then a little weird, no matter where i went, i saw Jessica 3 times total. First was when she shouted for me. Second was she come in Mcdonald again. Third was @ the interchange. Well, continue story. Before we went to meet Lian Shun, Boon Yuen and i went to walk Yi Teng to McCafe. Then go compasspoint, meet Shi Wei. Slowpoke sia ... Wait for him so long .. Then i think i ignored Si Ying. Sorry Si Ying, i nv hear u call me T.T Den we all met up, went swimming ... Swim quite long ... My leg band lost T.T I think when Shi Wei keep pulling me then lost ... Sian .. Hong Kong buy de sia ... Sad ... Anyone can help me buy i damn happy XD But, it seems nobody will buy for me de larh, so i dun mind. Hahas, i gonna go dota le, bye bye~~
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Later go swimming with Lian Shun, Boon Yuen, Shi wei. Now a bit sian .... Cuz haven't had breakfast i go carry weight liao ... Sianzz ... Now stomach empty ... Keep growling sia my stomach... Gotta meet Lian Shun and Boon Yuen around 3pm or so later. One more hour to go, i'm counting on you stomach. Recently addicted to the anime Claymore. Went to read the manga, not bad actually, i can almost say, better than the anime. Although the drawing looks old fashioned but, the storyline really rocks. It's real nice, you guys should go check it out once in a while. Just now so windy, now so hot ... Lucky go swimming ... Good day to go swim ... Damn hot right now ... The wind is like u switch on a fan to speed 1/2. Which doesn't exist but, it really feels like nothing... Just a little ind reaching you and you still feel hot ... Swim Swim swim ... Later go swimming le go LAN. I think dota there bah cuz Lian Shun cannot play L4D cuz he will dizzy ... Haizz .... Smses not replied ... Calls not returned ... what should i do? Maybe i should ask myself that question ... Well, thats all for now. Bye bye ~
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How i wish it lasted longer ... Before i found out what i didn't want to .. So close ... Feel so hungry ... Feel like feeding myself with whatever i have @ home ... Laughter ... Fun ... Joy ... Sadness ... Sorrows ... Regrets ... These are what we have in life ... What we wish to have, but we don't sometimes. We can't possibly have all. Thats why we are humans. Today wasn't a very great day. Just as usual, went out with them, played guitar hero, went out for dinner til 9pm plus plus den went home. Wei and Shun gt school tmr so can't go out til too late .. Recently found out the only place we always hang out around is hougang mall ... Where fun , laughter , joy , sadness , regrets , sorrows , anger remains at. But it's okay, i just wished it had lasted longer before i read what i have saw. It's kind of sad for me but , it's okay, =) By the way, the spammers @ my tagboard? Feel free to spam yourselves if it makes u feel heroic. Then contuinue. If it brings you fun and laughter. Please do , keep tagging. Cause, through your spams, i know you're all my lovely readers. No matter what you write. I'll thank you for it. Cause i have no time to entertain you =) Silence is what i hate ... I need sound around me ... Especially songs ... Today morning, my parents were out. This mother fucker come kicking my door. I peeped into the doorhole and he was some teenager. I was fed-up, took out the kitchen knife and took my house keys. Cause i was half awaken, i pointed the knife @ him and said, " Try kicking one more time and i'll fuck you. " Then i think i blurred, didn't see him well, just heard him ran away. I put back the knife and went back to sleep ... Seriously, i think i'm a loser too ... Take out knife LOL what gives? I kill him , i go to jail. Not a good trade... It's kindda sucky morning to start with ... Then woke up around 12pm, called Yuen , ask him wan go makan breakfast. Went to mall to slack... Til 2pm. Went to meet Wei @ my hse bus stop. There was this fat kid walking with him. I bluff Yuen the kid was Wei's younger bro. Den Yuen believed for a moment LOL !!! Joke of the day hahaha ... Well, i don't want to post le. Fingers need to rest you know? Btw, Claymore manga, i read from chap 1 to 98 today. Cuz gt no more chapters anymore so yea. Bye bye now~
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Saturday, November 21, 2009
Just watched Claymore ( anime ) Used 3 days to finish 26 episodes. Kind of slow ... Normally one day can settle all. But working and stuff are stopping me from watching so yea. Btw, don't watch it. Cause it doesn't have a perfect ending. I don't think i shouldn't even say it's an unperfect ending, rather endingless. It doesn't have an ending. When the last battle was going to start. It ends. so it makes u dig yourself inside out searching for that season 2. They have been voting for a season 2 for a long time already but nothing seems to be out. I think that season 2 ain't gonna come out that fast... Or rather never gonna come out. So yea, i'll just skip to other animes. But i just wish they could @ least finish that ending ... When Raki tells Clare that he loves her, she even almost killed Raki, instead, Jeane got attacked, cuz she pushed Raki away. Then Jeane told her to syncro her yoki with hers. Then Jeane died due to her being injured by Clare's yoma form. But Clare stabalised her yoki and turned back to human. Then Clare cried over Jeane being dead. Then Easley of the North jumps out and rescues Priscilla, the girl who killed Teresa of the faint smile. As Priscilla got defeated by Clare's yoma form earlier on. Then they talked about the next battle etc etc. Then Clare contuinues her journey. Her other 3 comrades also contuinues her journey, not planning to go back to the organisation. Then THE END. Wtf? No ending. As in, @ least finish the last battle right? Well, they're "voting" for a season 2. But i asked Armand if it's possible, he said. Want or not is one thing. Can or not is another. I think it does make some sense. For example, everyone wants the season 2. But can or not first? If the writer doesn't even wanna start the anime, what for? The vote will be useless. So i kicked the idea on search for season 2. But seriously, good anime. But no ending. Well, i got to go sleep. Damn tired today. Woke up around 4pm. A new record. I slept 3am last night, woke up 4pm. How many hours did i exactly slept? Around 13 hours or so? What a monster i am hahaha. Well, thats all. I got to go, tmr still have to work. Bye bye now~
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Friday, November 20, 2009
Today was very fun. I went to meet Bonn Yuen during the morning to eat breakfast. Then. Lian Shun he say he wanna join. But he go hougang ave 1 first. Then me n boon yuen must wait, so we go hougang mall slack first. Slack until 1pm, Lian Shun last min call us ownself go eat. So me n Yuen go eat, damn idiot. Haha. Then went to meet Da sao. Den she say want watch movie. Say wan watch 2012. So we all go home, change our clothes. Boon Yuen go my house, play guitar hero. He play like shit. The song haven't start he kpkb, keep saying he lose liao. Then slowly he got the timing right and he even beat my high score. The song which i never play liao . LOLz. Then i go change my clothes. I wear formal plus skinny jeans. They all wear formal plus 3 quarter pants. Pang seh me. Then we reach there, no more ticket for 2012. So we decided to watch a random movie while we were @ amk hub already. Don't want to have a wasted trip. Then we decided to watch Raging Phoenix. Some thailand show. Quite nice. The female actress got a bright future. Can fight and can kick soccer. Cuz some of the fighting skill macham soccer skill. Then we watch for 2 and a 1/2 hours. Then middle of the movie i almost slept. Someone kept me awake, she keep smsing me. I want to watch the show out of a sudden cuz exciting part. Then went home after the movies. Shi Wei borrow me money to buy half a fried chicken. Then @ the coffee shop got people kpkb, say wan fight but nv fight. Then shout here shout there. Macham dog barking. Cuz usually also have these type of quarrels, so i don't really care. I buy my food liao i go off with Shi Wei and Jie lin. Then they walk me to my hse void deck, den dey walk off. Jie lin only live a street away only, so it's damn near and easy for Shi Wei to walk her home. Well, thats all. Today only liddat. So yea, bye bye~
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Damn bored ! Sian sian siansation~ Row row row ur boat, gently down the stream~ Nothing to post ... Kindda bored today, cuz nv go out @ all ... Should have went out but father @ home so cannot go out .. Tonight playing dota kay people? Tonight vap room 4, 11pm. 2 v 2 or 4 v 4. Bye bye now~
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We often hear rules from the girls. Now , it's their turn to listen to the guy's rules. 1. Guys are not mind readers. 2. Crying is Blackmail. 3. Ask for what you want. 4. Strong/ Obvious hints don't work on us. Just say it! 5. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. 6. Come to us only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy are what your girlfriends are for. 7. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. Go see a doctor. 8. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. 9. If you don't dress like Victoria's Secret's Girls, don't expect us to be like soap opera boys. 10. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us. 11. If what we said can be interpreted two and one of the ways makes u angry or sad, we meant the other one. 12. If we ask what is wrong and u say nothing, we take it as nothing. ( We know ure lying but it doesn't worth the hassle.) 13. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine. Really.
I found this on facebook. Kindda lame though but it's funny. Well, thats all for now. Bye bye ~
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Monday, November 16, 2009
Nothing to post lol ... I put this page on from 9pm until now... Now already 10pm liao ... Sianzz ... Eat maggie mee bah ... So hungry ... No money buy thing eat. Eat cheapest bah ... Bye bye ~
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Hello people, seriously sia. You all as my brother, u rub it in. I damn sad liao, no words of concern but only, see what i mean. Bla bla bla. Seriously, if it makes you feel better than go ahead. Rub it in yea? When i drown myself, seriously, i don't want anybody to 可怜 me. Thats why i nv ask Jeff n Elson go out. Cuz they comfirm keep saying, i told u before this i told u before that. Make me feel worst! Thats why i ask Shi Wei, a more closer and understanding friend. But seriously, passer:) u huan lo can? You read liao kpkb. Mai kp la, u tink i dunno u who ar? Comfirm either Mark or some sore loser de la. No need to hide yourself. Write ur name down la What, scared kana scold ar? Awwww poor thing. Dare to post but dun dare put own name =( So sad .... Well, thats all. I've given up on her. I've thought it through. Now i'm prefectly okay le. Just like what i said. Give me 3 days and i'll return to the old me. =) The most i'll just complain like a girl for 3 days den i'll be alright. So now, i've said out all my thoughts , i feel alot better. So i'm okay =) Maybe i'm considering of removing my tagboard cause got passer keep talking crap. The worst is the passer no name de. Always passer passer. Is Mark's friend somemore. I remembered liao. From Mark's blog de. Some girl =.= ... Well, if posting crap entertains yourself then i won't remove it. Cause life needs entertainment. So yea, entertain your pitiful sorrow. Come read liao den talk nonsense @ people's blog. I think you really too free liao hahas. Just do what you like. Be happy =) Bye bye now~
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Yea, let me die alone. Today Shi wei, Boon Yuen,me go punggol park walk walk. Den i very depressed, so wanted to drink some .. Shi wei buy, den we go punggol park drink. I drink only half of the can nia a bit drunk liao. I started talking nonsense, i wanted to cry but i don't dare in front of Shi Wei. Now Shi wei just called me ... He quarreled with his girlfriend ... I now more confused, more depressed. Should have just drank more and just slept early. Damn sian right now ... I feel very tired in the inside. . . I keep telling myself not to think about her so i keep going out with my brothers. But i keep going out with them, make themselves also got problem ... They worried about me, cuz dey think i'll commit suicide or do something silly. Now damn beat .... Seriously, i love you, but you just won't give me the chance. Yes you LIKE me, as a friend? Or as a lover? I don't know you la, i'm damn sad now. You toy me i also dunno. I just know i won't trust love anymore. I think i'll just anyhow lor now. Become the old me. Nobody will really love me. Nothing is forever. You won't love me at all. Not now not forever. I know your pattern de, u say u won't love me jiu won't love me de. So i've given up you. I'll 彻底死心 so i won't be fooled by you. I'm the biggest fool to think that i could stand a chance. I'm just a stray cat you picked up from the road side ... I'm fucking depressed, you know how i felt when u just kicked me aside? I did everything u said, u say don't tell anyone i also nv tell, den u just felt tired n kicked me away. I feel so pathetic right now. If my friends see me like that, they'll laugh @ me being so pathetic. I've never loved someone so much before. So much that i miss you alot alot. This feeling is so special, i've never felt like this before. But you just snap me apart. As if nothing happpened. You're very open-minded, you don't mind anything ... But i do, i'll wait. I say le, once i decide something, i'll do it. I'll let you fall in love with me one day. But i want to rest for a few days. I'm just very very very tired. Feel so much like crying my heart out. But i just cried too much today. Morning u kicked me away, i cried when i was showering. Cried alot alot alot... Almost as if it was someone who died. Today Boon Yuen talk to me about her, i cried again. I was like " Marcus, control urself you fuckin tard. Don't lose it " Then Boon Yuen follow me go buy earring , den go toilet, he go shit, i go toilet cry. Lucky his shit nt smelly. I cried until i song liao den we go roof top, we go chit chat. Den we talk alot, i wanted to cry so much. But i just think, if i cry in front of boon yuen, he'll just sit there and become silent. So i don't think crying in front of him any use. So i rather i just tell him but pull myself together. On the way home, Shi Wei walk me home. I reach the lift, i started to cry. I wanted to rip myself apart, see what's my brain containing. I felt so useless ... I wanted you so much but yet i couldn't have you. Feel like shit now. Damn confused ... Dunno want to give u up or wait. But i scared if i wait for you, you'll just kick me away just like u did previously. I really love you. I want you to love me then we stead. You that time too 冲动 den say want stead. I knew u regretted, can see from the way u talk n sms. You are not sure of urself. bye bye
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Sunday, November 15, 2009
Trust. The word that will never be true. Nobody trusts nobody. Somebody just won't trust somebody. People don't trust people. Friends don't trust friends. Thus, from trust , creating the word, False hope. You trust someone, u hope for something. After that, that trust disappears , forming false hope. I don't really know the word false hope even though i think i've been through it alot of times. For example, i trust this guy. I told him all my shit, den one day he used all those shit to threaten me. No way i'll let someone threaten me. Unless you're someone i love or respect. Seriously , i've said a thousand and one times, i will never force u again. No it isn't ur fault, i don't blame you... Just, forget it. You do what u want bah. I can't control u either. Do what you think you feel right. I knew you didn't want me ... You like only , not love mah. Nvm. I respect ur decision, u wan break den okay. I won't force you. But i've said before, i won't trust love anymore after this ... So yea, i'll stay single until i finally have the courage to stand again ... This may be my last post i myself also dunno. I just wish to silent up myself, today totally no mood le. But Boon Yuen workin so yea. Maybe after work will tell him about my feelings, thoughts ... I knew it was too god to be true, yes, now i'm talking pathetic. Mark, is not i wan break up. Is she want de so yea. Today no mood to joke ... Feel so much like sleeping. Wish i could just sleep, sleep until i forget about today. Running away from reality is my only option right now. Like my mother said, once i'm in love, i'll become another person and turn insane. Btw, for all people who wanna know, Black Cat is me. I'm black cat , yea, no point telling now. After so much, i'm just a stray cat =) A cat who doesn't have someone to love or someone who loves. Guess i'll return to my old simple ordinary life, being a no life asshole. Today might be my last post, so yea, i'll try to make it long ... I just wish weird feelings just wouldn't exist. I'm not gonna commit suicide so yea, i might be emotionally weak but my mind is still there. I won't cut my wrist or whatsoever too so yea. I'm still gonna act as if nothing happen but after work, i'll turn no life. Total no strength everywhere now. Don't feel like standing up or whatsoever. But work is a must. So i must stand up .... I'm damn depressed right now. So yea, no rubbish for today or i might become crazy. My mind isn't really proper right now ... Damn depressed ... Maybe gonna pick it up again . I just feel , if you want to be together then don't need to care about that feeling or whatsoever. Saying this now is useless le. To you, i'm just some cat u picked up from the corridor. Yes, i've posted lots of stuff ... Using the name black cat. Guess it doesn't really help. =) Though i've done so much. Never mind, i wanted to help on my own accord so yea. Recently, i've been grouchy. Almost as if i've mood swing myself. I'm gonna go offline now. Bye. Won't be online for a period of time. Thanks.
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Lian Shun , lets go to LAN once in a while again. With Shi Wei and Boon Yuen. We train Ah Wei until he damn zai liao den we play 4v4 public. Boon Yuen say wanted to play Life for Dead 2. But no time cause i went to meet someone, so yea, left early. Lian Shun, alot of people dunno, i want wait till stable liao den tell. So yea, don't say is who. Sianz nw nth to do ... Lian Shun call me go dota le. Bye bye~
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Saturday, November 14, 2009
Today had this weird thinking. I thought of something nonsense. I should trust you. I shouldn't anyhow guess. You rest well kays? You're sick so don't go out. Anything just call me, i'll go down there. Sian ... Please don't have the weird feeling. You know i'm very afraid of you having that weird feeling? I almost cried when u told me u have the weird feeling ... I'm puzzled right now. Please, just act as normal, don't need to act someone you aren't. Be yourself, don't think too much ... Now currently nothing to do ... Last night didn't sleep til 5.30am. Den 7.30am woke up again, den sleep. Today work almost wanted my eyes from me. I almost fainted ... Walked a bit random. Normally i walk straight de. But today walk like a bit to left, den bit to right. As if i was drunk or something liddat. Now listening to songs inside my handphone ... Kind of bored. Missing ... Thinking ... Liking ... Loving ... I can get used to it ... I've told u alot of times, i won't force you anymore so just freely express yourself. Just be who you want. I'm not forcing you to be someone else you aren't. So, just act per normal. Don't think too much. I'll be with you ... Kays? Well, now listening to Beautiful People, trying to make myself in your shoes. So we won't have any quarrels anymore. I want to do and say. Not only say say only, i will do it. Like i've said, i won't force you, means i will not, if i force you, you can kill me =) Well , thats about the end now ... Gtg ~ Bye bye readers.
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Later working @ 1pm. Work til 9pm. Now finding ways for her to pay back her money ... She owe alot people money le ... Until she clear all the money she owes. She'll be working like hell. Well, now kindda bored ... Later work til 9pm, then see got go meet her anot ... Last night damn high. Can't believe that special news. Just cannot believe my ears. I thought i was dreaming, i pinched myself more than 5 times. Wooooooo~ So happy !!!! Thanks Shi Wei. Next time we go out, u carry me again. I lazy walk liao. Well, i gtg now. I need to go prepare now. Bye bye readers.
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Siansation is a kind of sensation. Sensation has Siansation. Now i so tired ... Just wish to go out more with you guys ... Unlucky can become lucky de =) Today is a very special day to me. Cannot tell you, if u want know ask Shi Wei, he wait for me at basketball court. It was around 10.00pm, basketball court lights were off, he sat there like some emo shit. Then i ask him, he stare @ what, he tell me , he stare @ the basketball ring. He say he somehow feel like playing basketball. Then i call him go compasspoint with me, i call him carry me. Then on the way to compass, we saw something funny. We saw 2 frog. One small and one big. The small one was on top of the big one. The big one cannot move. I use my slipper smack the floor very hard, the frog nv run. I think because they doing *** den no strength. The big one i think is female, cause the small one keep moving like some vibrating machine. He keep talking to me. Then Shi Wei, told me to contuinue talking to him, then we talk rubbish, den we talk about her. Shi Wei, tell me about alot of his past. Then we go bread talk, i go buy 2 bun. Den i wan close the whatever u call that, den i use the tong try to clip the handle, den suddenly, my right hand no strength. I drop 2 bun on the floor, Shi Wei, become soccer kia, he kick the bun under the shelf. we buy liao den we run. Macham 2 idiot buy 2 bread become buy 3. Cuz drop 2 only buy 1. Then talk talk talk. Nothing to post liao ... Very sian now ... I going to end le here den. Bye bye ~
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Friday, November 13, 2009
Sick sia ... Seriously, i just heard about it. You're such a sore loser. You can't get the girl you use pathetic ways. You can't see her face, you go her blog save all her pics. Seriously, come on, if she's ur stead u do that, i got nothing to say. Omg , she isn't you take her photos for? Seriously, she's being bothered by that. It isn't funny you know. Neither is it a thing that you should be proud of. Now you n her are just normal friends , you don't think too much. Now you n her are only held to be friends because of that 50 dollars. after she returns you the money, she wants you not to contact her anymore. Due to your spams. You made her handphone bill expensive. For example : "Yo, Good morning !" =.= Lame? Please, you don't have an outside life, she has, i have. So please, don't make a fool out of yourself. Thank you =) Enough about pathetic stuff. Later going out with Boon Yuen, Lian Shun, Yi Jia & lots more. Go swimming den go eat @ dunno where. They only tell me need bring 20 dollars .. Later go out with Boon Yuen buy phone. He want buy same phone as me. ( Gays forever ) =.= Well, guess that's all. Last thing, Mark, don't make a nuisance out of yourself. Yi Ting is side me de so now you sms whatever to her, i'll know. She has a boyfriend , which is Lian Shun , so please, back off la kays? Unless you backside itchy want him kick your ass =) Jessica already got someone she fancy liao so please, automatic la huh? Seriously, even i am pissed off with your actions. You know why she dun dare reject you? She scared you cry. So she's protecting you in a way but you keep giving urself false hope. Tell you something, you disturb her again, she tell me, i'll make sure i want 2 teeth from you. =) Thats all ! Bye bye now~
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
Siansation ... Recently just can't get up on the time i want. i want 8am wake up also no strength. Just siansation lor ... Today damn tired. Do runner ... With Yuan Zhi quite fun ... He keep scolding bad word. Make me laugh. Then he anyhow take my products ... My turn, he walk pass he take. Then i have to wait. Customer jiu kpkb me ... Naho keep laughing @ me ... Cause kana scold by customer ... Grouchy. Sian lor ... Jun qing like duno smile @ who. Ask him, he give me attitude. Sianzzz ... Dunno what to post liao ... Bye bye then.
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I hate myself right now. Can anyone just tell me what to do? I'm in a mess now. Last night, i was drunk. I think i talked nonsense. I blacked out, then i woke up. Asked Damian to call me den we dota-ed. That's what i can only recall... It's kind of weird. Cause i don't remember asking people for cigarettes. Then Mark say i ask him for cigarettes. It's kind of weird, he's a stay home kind of kid and i ask him for cigarettes? Maybe i was too drunk to know who i was talking to. Then he told me that i also asked Jessica for cigarettes. Crap! Strike out. Did i really ask from you this type of thing? I'm so sorry ... I USED to smoke but now i don't. Everyone of my buddies know that. I'm real sorry. I know it's already too late to apologize but i am really sorry for my actions. I know i shouldn't have drinked too much . I am sorry. I didn't mean to ask you this type of things but, yea. I'm really really sorry. I just wish we could just settle down and talk things over. Recently you've been kindda "hot" in a way that i can't even talk to u. As in even though i get a chance, you'll always be hot-headed and shut me up. I won't blame you for it but i really do hope that you and i could just sit down and chat. I want to let you know how sorry i am. I really really didn't mean to ask you for those type of things. It might sound a little pathetic but i just want you to accept my apology. I know i've been an idiot from time to time. But i'm sorry. Sorry for the times i've made you mad at me and spoil your mood. Well, i gtg ... Bye bye ...
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Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Just nw kana chua sai. Play the tick tag toe thing. damian post de. He say noob computer. So thought, maybe i can play also. I go play, face come out, i chua sai, i alt +f4. haha, almost cry out. The face come out i kup my labtop screen, then the scream contuinues, i open i press alt+f4. Sounds silly? You try, if you see gohst almost everyday, u will be like me, chua sai like shit. Now talking to Andre by phone, so that i won't be so scared. Actually i very hum ji de ... So next time go haunted house or anything don't call me or i'll smash ur bloody face. I actually not very scared, is just that the eye balls very disgusting, see liao wan vomit. Hear the screams also very scary. Macham, tio rape liddat. Mark say he want change for the better. He say he give up Jessica liao. But he still write in his blog as. ''I love you Jessica. I'll prove to them i am not a flirter.'' Thats what he said. Well, still not on very good terms with him. Just normal friends bah ... Now not like i very like him or really hate him. Just okay okay bah ... Now nothing to do ... Cause kana chua sai. Then kana ignored by people i wanna chat with ... Tmr who working? damn sian. Nobody work with me sia ... Only Yuan Zhi bah ... Nobody work same timing as me ... Maybe tmr still work until around 8pm i go liao lor ... Cause recently damn tired ... Need someone massage me ... Anyone with good hand power want try? I'll pay you for massaging me ... And people whom i owe money, relax. I'll return you once i get hte money. Now daily meal is $0. Everyday eat nothing. Skip breakfast n lunch. Only makan dinner ... Sianzzz .... No money liao ... Cause lend someone .. So gotta wait lor ... Wait until next week den mother give me money lor ... Now sian lor ...Sometimes father treat me eat lor ... Or else, i nv eat lor cause really broke liao ... Friday i hope i got money to eat bah ... Nothing to post liao ... Maybe i'll just stop here. Bye bye ~
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Now chatting with Andre. Then went to facebook. ... Change my dp ... Damian n me just nw play webcam, make funny face LOL Make tat type of dog face and bird face. All weird weird de lor .. Now going t Dota with Andre ... Sianzz .... I think this post is gonna be short ... I hear this voice last night ... It was gentle and light ... It was yours Jess ... I think it was a dream or something. I just heard ur voice and thought u were beside me. Damn weird huh? My younger bro is irritating ... Everything keep telling me. Just like a living broken recorder. Telling me everything and repeating ... Now nothing to do .... Andre on the phone call me dota liao. Kays den. Guess this post will be this short. I gotta go guys! Will blog tonight =) Bye bye now ~
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Now nothing to do ... Sore throat ... Can't even shout lor ... Wanted to try my voice see if can do screamo. Tried, throat hurt even more, but quite fun. Actually i can't sing @ all ... The singer's my brother. He likes to sing & is alot better than me. Now very sian lor .. Nothing to do ... I want make this post long but nothing to type bah ... Just now go find Mr Syed. Return him file. Jeff & Elson owe him storybook so went together. Andre go watch movie bo jio. Stupid dickhead. Now very sian ... Recently got new comer to blog sia. Name : BetterThenYou Must be some random girl from his school bah. See larh, maybe is the girl u try to jio before de. Now see u want Jessica, then she come scold u liao. U should stop man. You're hurting everybody like that. I know because i'm like u before. I hurt everyone around me. I keep thinking only myself. I keep thinking, having one stead and i'll stop so i keep searching. Then soon, i got the title "白马王子'' But i'm a ''白马王子'' who never found his ''白雪公主'' Settle down. Think over. Do you really love her or are u taking her as someone else? Don't be like me, take someone else as her shadow , end up the girll being her shadow gets hurt the most. So think about people around you. Not only yourself. Are you really so despo? Just settle down bah ... Relax ... Think about what you've done ever since you've come to work. Nothing but flirting bah... Friends made are mostly girls? Yes, having girls as friends are okay but, you sure u take dem as friends? i think u take them as spare tire bah? Like one u can't have her , you just forget it and proceed to the other one .. Forget about it. Don't wanna talk about you le. Okay! Recently, gonna kana promoted to Mc Cafe ... I will learn with Boon Yuen de la Cherie ... Boon Yuen duno hw to take ice cream la .. Cherie bluff me ... He only knw hw to setup kiosk nia .. Find one day u train me n boon yuen want? =) Then we all go Mc Cafe. I dun wan stand @ store liao ... Tiring ... See when u free, u come down train me n boon yuen lor ... K la, i think thats about it ... I got nothing to type liao ... Lets see ... Yeap! All write down liao lor ... See if later on got anything happen den i'll blog it down. Blog like damn active nowadays LOL Well, i gotta run~ Bye bye readers !
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Now very bored ... Listening to her blog songs. I knew tonight i comfirm post one time de ... Sian lor today .. Seriously meaningless lor... I rather i slept throughout today ... But @ least i listened to songs, didn't waste time. @ least i relaxed myself ... Now listen until Candles - Hey Monday. Damn sian ... Bored also larh ... Wanna do something, something exciting but legal ... What should i do? Now Cinderella - Tata Young. Zzz... One song later only type a bit nia ... Now u know i type one post how long liao bah? Hahas ... Cause really nothing to post !!! Just now damn funny. Stupid Yuan Zhi prank me. He call my phone, he say he lying on the road now. Ask me go find him. I stun den ask him wad happen. He tell me go 5 people come , one kick his dick den all beat him up. I say u nw @ where, den i go take my keys liao den he say , " No la, just joking." Wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf ... Kana prank by him LOL But nvm, i'll prank him back one day =) Now Brithney Spears - Womanizer - Official Hd Now M2m Mirror Mirror Damn, spend 2 songs timing talking to Yuan Zhi LOL He's such a prankster, he still give me the dying voice LOL I thought real sia ... Hahahahas !!! Sianzzz ... Now Cascada - Evacuate the Dancefloor wasted too many time talking to him liao ... He want Jie Ling number. But her friends or sleeping liao how i get? He also one blur sotong, he ask the girl call him but he nv give the girl his number. Yuan Zhi cute sia XD Now 1:08 am liao ... Now Electropop wasted so many time ... Just sian bah .... Well, post till here bah ... Goodbye~~
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Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Now chatting with Boon Yuen on msn ... So cute sia he . Still as usual the same old Boon Yuen i know. Not like someone else ... Changed alot ... Seriously alot. Thumb hurts alot ... Kana blisters ... Then a bit bleeding ... Today went to work, work til 7pm nia, cuz damn tired ... Den met Lian Shun, talk a bit , wait for him eat den i bored so went home alone. Actually i today is 10pm go home de, but i made a deal with the manager, if i managed to call one person to come work for 4 hours, they let me go home @ 7pm. Then i ask Yi ting work ... Thanks man, if she nv come i comfirm work til 10pm liao ... Very sian nowadays ... Today saw Mark come work, den he left. Dunno what happen, don't want to know either. Not interested ... Yea yea, push the blame to me, i did this that this that. I'm the bad guy, u're the good guy man. Psyco anybody you want. If u think thats gonna help u den contuinue. Do what u want, but seriously, what you're doing nw is stressing her out. Thats y i gave up. I learned to take her as a brother. She's my brother and i'm her sister. Why can't u just be more open-minded ? Just be like last time, i'll consider u being my friend. But for now. Try your best to change ... Friday go eat durian ~ durian ~ durian ~ Go with Chan, Boon Yuen, Lian Shun. Shi Wei, Jie Lin, Yi Ting together eat durian ~ We'll all meet @ Hougang Mall Mcdonalds. Time will be 2pm ~ 9pm. We go eat durian liao then go slack. Give ideas where u guys wanna go. Not comfirmed are : Shi Wei & Jie Lin. Lol, couple not comfirmed ... Everyone else already comfirm liao. Still got who want to go? Dunno bah ... Maybe the usual group go can liao. But missing someone ... Kelvin. Dunno he want to go anot ... Well, thats the post for today. Maybe i'll post one more later on. Bye bye for now~
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I'm seeing stars every morning .... So cute ... Make me a little dizzy though ... Walked to the toilet, almost fell down... If fall down comfirm kana face plant on the floor ... Work work ... This friday goin eat durian ~~ Recently really tired ... Nowadays don't feel like going to work ... Cause @ home got PS3 ... Then so many game i all nv try out ... Sianzzzzzzzzz !!! These few days having aches all over ... Going to break apart already ... Panadols aren't helping alot cause they are temporary. Panadol extra also useless, its just having the word EXTRA behind only ... Have them only when i have aches so guys, when i say keeps my worries, i mean aches. I'm not so dumb going to commit suicide you know? I'm not gonna leave this world until i fulfil my wishes =) What are my wishes? Not gonna post on blog cause some are really embarrassing ... But seriously, i can tell u some on post. Wish : Wanna enjoy the 4 seasons. Winter , summer, autumn and spring. Wanna feel the earthquake. I wanna see people panic, of course, i hope they don't die. Get trust from everyone. Working on it. Hope everyone trusts me again. Kicking the habit of having crushes too easily. Faster 21 years old then i can drive a car =)
Thats all. Street fighter damn fun. Graphics are cool too. Some wishes are confidential information. Wanna know my wish? Ask me in the face n i'll tell you, depending who you are. =) Well thats all, i gotta go prepare for work already ... Bye bye ~~
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Hey people, how're you guys tonight? I feel like i just got bumped. Kindda tired and broke... She said she needed $$. I lend her all i have lor ... It seems someone isn't just isn't going to appreciate me offer. Maybe he's gonna think that i'm gonna woo her again. Yes, i do love her, but it doesn't mean i can't be friends with her or help her when she needs help yea? I told her, I'll wait =) Wait til she's satisfied then she come stead me. I'll wait, even if it takes all my time. But seriously, forgetting someone within a day is godlike for me ... Cause it isn't possible ... Is it? So hard to forget someone you love ... Yet, you can just forget anyone like a piece of trash. Seriously, if u think after reading this post, u feel i still love her, then be angry with u want. I know i post this finish you won't talk to me. Never mind. Don't forget. I still got alot of friends. You're not the only one =) What for i keep putting " he " ? Why not make this easier, Mark kays? Seriously, from last time til now you changed alot. You've become weirder ... Last time u more sociable and open minded. Now you're crazy. You're just killing yourself . . . But i can't do anything. Cause only you know why, but you don't care. I've asked alot of people. If they were me, what would they do. They said, losing a friend is dumb because of a relationship, but if is ur other friend dun want you, then he's just retarded. ( Copied from Damian's message) Seriously, it's tiring seeing ur face u know? Yes, i know u hate me alot, but u think i like u also meh? I hate u too man. You better not step on my tail man, u try irritating me kays? I know you don't want me as a friend anymore. Never mind. =) I'm prepared for what you're going to say ... You gonna scold me and hate me. Seriously, whatever man, if u think you're just that f*ckin great then contuinue. I got friends i can trust. While i don't know if u do have someone ... I'm not trying to bully you now. I'm just curious, why are you so buai hiao bai at sometimes? Yes, i've been jealous a long time already. I've been keeping it inside me. I know you wish me to die. But let me tell you this, if i die, i'll bring you with me. I have friends who support me. I don't know about you but if you think i'm joking then try me. I'll make sure u regret it =) Okay, enough about that. Now currently bored ... Brother singing in front of me ... Some Marilyn Manson songs ... He's a bass singer so it's quite okay. His voice is okay, but mine, CMI. Ate 3 panadols today. Lucky got bring out ... Just now went home from Mac. Walked home alone ... Was calling Chan and Boon Yuen. See when go eat durian ... Den i ended all their calls already, i almost fainted. I rest at the bus stop. Had a panadol, no water so just swallow, luckily it just slipped down ... Then rest for 10 minutes, got alot punggol primary students come out ... Then i walk home, finally reach home then okay liao ... Damn sian ... Guo Shen , i miss you man, meet up sometime leh .. We go talk about the stuff we talk everytime leh ^^ U know i know can liao ( winks~ ) Jeffrey, Elson birthday we go his house meet him lor. Then at his void deck then beat him liao den we go watch movies want? Sian la ... This friday go Geylang eat durian with Boon Yuen & Chan ... I no money liao .... Currently still looking for ways. I'll give it to u tmr. Trust me =) Mark, forget it, don't act in front of me. Say what got $60 plus plus. Actually no money, u must be thinking, how i know? Let me tell you something, I'm closer to Yi ting's click of friends and i know her longer than you kays? Don't think you got alot of friends kay? Sorry if you think i'm very very 过分 but you seriously damn buai hiao bai. Yes, i know i not any better but at least i don't go and fall in love with my best friend's girlfriend and act as if nothing happen the next day. Chan told me alot of stuff today. I really got listen so , Chan , no need scared i never listen to your advices. Your advices and other people who gave me advices, i thank you guys. Boon Yuen, not i don't want tell you, is i don't want affect your mood. You having O levels. No time for nonsense like this ... And i've thought it through. Yes, DaFu, good point, beat him for what? Also useless, make myself have a lousier image . Might as well not even touch him. And yea, no point hating someone. I shouldn't hate him. He hate me i also got no solution ... Just let him hate bah, but i won't talk to him maybe? He's changed alot since he like her. Just weird bah ... Dots, just now wan talk about happy stuff de den become type this type of shit. What to do now? Andy, i know u comfirm close one eye de la but ... Forget it, i won't beat him , unless he beat me first. But even if he beat me i also no mood beat back lor ... Cause also sian lor ... Tired ... No energy for these types of stuff ... But Mark, listen up, me n Jess now is best friends nia thats all. And just now my phone okay liao then saw al the messages. Saw the ones u wrote what, you okay anot out of a sudden. Seriously, if u got nothing to do, just find something to entertain yourself. And i write my blog, u read and u tell me u feel bad and whatsoever. I also never call u read. U read on your own accord. What u read stays here, what you say stays in my mind. Now i'm not trying to prove anything here but seriously, become the previous Mark. Not like now the Mark who has an empty pride. Don't talk to me until you think you've become the Mark everyone used to know. I have alot of things once i say u might commit suicide. I've been caring about ur feelings but ur sms " Seriously i hate you" Hurts me too damn lot. But i'm not gonna tell u just yet. I just like to see people suffer. Thats why i love Saw one, two, three, four,five and nw planning go watch six. So epic and kindda thrilling .... I need to go rest now. Anything just text me. But Mark, don't bother texting me. Text her if you want. Come down everyday if you want. Doesn't prove anything. Wanna make me give up is impossible. I'll wait .. Just you see. I know what you're gonna do now ... Psyco Jess right? Hope you do succeed la kays? Cause we now currently already on good terms already. So yea, =) we've been meeting up like last time nowadays. What for tell you so much when you don't even care? Never mind then Sorry if i hurt you a way or another. But i hate to lose. don't be disppointed ... =) Yes, i'll still love Jess but i won't force her and sms her like 24/7. That isn't love, thats controlling someone. Smsing her almost every moment. You don't have an outside life, she does man. I do too so please. I know ur sms free de cause you got lots of money but please. Control la kay? Bye.
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Monday, November 9, 2009
Yay! My dad bought me a ps3. It costs 635 dollars LOL So expensive ... My bro gave 200, i gave 200 n my dad gave the rest. Bought street fighter 4, ultimate attack damn hard to use ... Before coming home, i was talking to Chan, he counselled me like a professional. I talked to Chan at first, cuz i was really troubled and he was really worried about me. Then he ask me, why my face so sian , what happened? I told him, it's because i love jessica alot but i don't wanna lose mark as a friend. I asked him, if u were me what would you do? He said, " If i were you, i won't even be friends with Mark cause on relationship battle, there's no one called friend." So i don't have to hold back, want to love, go ahead and love. I was confused til i cried in front of Chan .. LOL so embarassing .... I don't know lor ... Then Chan go do his things for 5 mins. During that 5 mins, Andy's turn to counsel me, he told me that life is like that, full of regrets and hatred, just treat it as stepping stones and just forget about it. But i keep occupying myself, make myself forget her temporary. Andy said i was running away from the truth ... But i just can't take the hit. I think its too much for me to handle. Today i didn't expect to see her cause she normally go church until damn late .. The moment i saw her, alot of things flashed through my mind, i even had headaches twice .. Had panadol once, still pain, second time, she left and i was alright. She's like an addiction, when she's close and i leave alot of things unsaid, i'll have headaches ... Then Yuan Zhi say things like that are normal and told me not to think so much ... He said there are alot of girls, but hard to find the one and only you love. She just smsed me that she liked someone else, so to make me give up mentally and physically, just tell me that u don't like me please, i feel as if u have a bit of feelings with me... And i've kindda been unfair to someone ... Don't wish to say her name but i took her as her shadow, a mirror image . I gave up on myself. I smell you everywhere, i see u everywhere, i hear u everywhere whenever i think about you. I think my senses are ruined ... I have mixed everything up ... I'm ruined ...
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Saturday, November 7, 2009
Damn tired now. So freakin tired. Last night had 1 hour of sleep and thats all. Not that i don't wanna sleep. Maybe it's something bothering me. 2am ~ 6am keep on waking up for half an hour or so. Den finally from 6am to 8am den can't sleep liao. So tired now. My mum wants me to work no matter what. damn it la ... But seriously, 3/5 dreams were about her appearing . Which were the past la, like about me n her chatting n bla bla bla. Our fun and happy times. But now it won't be able to happen again. When she n i were close friends, maybe won't happen. Now we have someone blocking the connection of being best friends. Which is her pursuer. Can't stop him for liking her. Can't stop me from liking her either. Whatever man, can't type anymore . Gotta go wash up n prepare for work ... Bye
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Tired lor ... Blog not active anymore. Alot has went through my mind last night. Kept waking up and stuff. I've never missed someone like that or have thought about someone so much like that. So its kindda weird for me. It's like, it's a totally different feeling. Maybe the previous weren't love at all? Maybe she's right, i'm just too much of a flirt. So i gotta stop and settle down. I'll stop. To show you i'm not a flirt. I'm gonna change. Well, i'm not gonna force you and stuff . I'll wait til the time is right. Sorry for being an ass the previous time. Well, i just can't control myself. Seriously ... This time i just like you alot alot .. I don't know anymore .. I'm confused now. Maybe i love you but .. I don't know ... Forget it, i don't know ... 忘不了你，天天失眠。 Keep waking up every night. Its tiring . Wake up just to shift my handphone nearer so that i can hear my message tone. Sometimes i'm dumb enough to think that the reception isn't good enough. So i'll switch off and on my phone. Thinking that messages will come ... Well, thats much for today. Goodbye
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Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Finally, night has arrived =) No more younger bro disturbing me. Parents won't nag @ me .. Finally manz Feels so good without anyone beside me. Being alone is the best manz ... Today, will be until 3am den i sleep =D Until i really cannot liao den i go sleep. Just now played Fiesta with Andre, leveled til 17 today ... Guess being drunk makes u do stuff u don't even know. At least i don't drink too much =) someone drank too much and did something dumb. Now got lectured =.= Can't help ... Can only say, too bad manzxxz! Nights people. Love ya guys manzxz!
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I've never hated someone like that. You imagine someone go bath nv take towel =.= Den walk out make the floor wet and he's dripping like shit. Seriously, if you were me, how'd you feel you freakin idiot?! Bath for 20seconds and u tell me you're clean and you have some soap on your head. I help you wash your head is for your own good, and yet you take water spray me back, spray also spray more accurate, spray outside bathroom =.=. Now try to act as victim try complain . Aiya, once you're in the wrong, don't make it as if you're in the right la. You better don't make me explode man, freakin idiot. Now you try to agitate me by studying in front of me when your f*ckin exams are over! Knn ... You lucky u're my younger brother. If you're outside fren, i make sure i break ur arm man. Freakin idiot! Never wanted to hit someone before, be happy, you're the first younger brother.
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Monday, November 2, 2009
Don't know what to post today ... Feelings are kindda weird O.o Btw, message to noob. I understand how you feel, so i deleted her contact, having a hundred percent no more, trouble from me. Andre, Jeff, Elson, thanks for being there when i need help. But i settle liao, mai spam liao kays? Well, thats all for that problem! =) Now wanna go read manga and watch anime le .. Jin Hao, settle liao la, u slowpoke . Call you come work dun wan work. Keep goin out with ur frens, see la, nw system auto clear ur name ... Message to Jin Hao, if i despo for ur help will call u de la, last solution then i ask you cuz small thing like quarrels u come down waste time nia. Might as well i solve peacefully then u using violence right? Haha. Btw, Jin hao, Boon yuen 22 Nov comin back, u try come mac work la kay? Chan and i nobody play with us sia ... Now we self entertain ourselves with psp nia ... Thanks yea? Bye readers! ( P.s Sorry if fonts are too small) =)
