Name: Marcus Goh Shao Hao
Age: 17
School : Tampines ITE
Race: Chinese
Birthday: 12 March 1993
Status: Currently single
Likes : Anime ! Manga !
Hates : Violence. Seeing girls cry.
Yea, let me die alone. Today Shi wei, Boon Yuen,me go punggol park walk walk. Den i very depressed, so wanted to drink some .. Shi wei buy, den we go punggol park drink. I drink only half of the can nia a bit drunk liao. I started talking nonsense, i wanted to cry but i don't dare in front of Shi Wei. Now Shi wei just called me ... He quarreled with his girlfriend ... I now more confused, more depressed. Should have just drank more and just slept early. Damn sian right now ... I feel very tired in the inside. . . I keep telling myself not to think about her so i keep going out with my brothers. But i keep going out with them, make themselves also got problem ... They worried about me, cuz dey think i'll commit suicide or do something silly. Now damn beat .... Seriously, i love you, but you just won't give me the chance. Yes you LIKE me, as a friend? Or as a lover? I don't know you la, i'm damn sad now. You toy me i also dunno. I just know i won't trust love anymore. I think i'll just anyhow lor now. Become the old me. Nobody will really love me. Nothing is forever. You won't love me at all. Not now not forever. I know your pattern de, u say u won't love me jiu won't love me de. So i've given up you. I'll 彻底死心 so i won't be fooled by you. I'm the biggest fool to think that i could stand a chance. I'm just a stray cat you picked up from the road side ... I'm fucking depressed, you know how i felt when u just kicked me aside? I did everything u said, u say don't tell anyone i also nv tell, den u just felt tired n kicked me away. I feel so pathetic right now. If my friends see me like that, they'll laugh @ me being so pathetic. I've never loved someone so much before. So much that i miss you alot alot. This feeling is so special, i've never felt like this before. But you just snap me apart. As if nothing happpened. You're very open-minded, you don't mind anything ... But i do, i'll wait. I say le, once i decide something, i'll do it. I'll let you fall in love with me one day. But i want to rest for a few days. I'm just very very very tired. Feel so much like crying my heart out. But i just cried too much today. Morning u kicked me away, i cried when i was showering. Cried alot alot alot... Almost as if it was someone who died. Today Boon Yuen talk to me about her, i cried again. I was like " Marcus, control urself you fuckin tard. Don't lose it " Then Boon Yuen follow me go buy earring , den go toilet, he go shit, i go toilet cry. Lucky his shit nt smelly. I cried until i song liao den we go roof top, we go chit chat. Den we talk alot, i wanted to cry so much. But i just think, if i cry in front of boon yuen, he'll just sit there and become silent. So i don't think crying in front of him any use. So i rather i just tell him but pull myself together. On the way home, Shi Wei walk me home. I reach the lift, i started to cry. I wanted to rip myself apart, see what's my brain containing. I felt so useless ... I wanted you so much but yet i couldn't have you. Feel like shit now. Damn confused ... Dunno want to give u up or wait. But i scared if i wait for you, you'll just kick me away just like u did previously. I really love you. I want you to love me then we stead. You that time too 冲动 den say want stead. I knew u regretted, can see from the way u talk n sms. You are not sure of urself. bye bye
